This is the week I found out about baby!! I've decided to document each week- how I'm feeling both physically and emotionally.
Physical:
SORE boobs!! I'm now wearing a bra at all times (even sleeping) because 1) it feels better, and 2) for prevention of further migration south;
BRAIN DEAD. Holy Moses, I cannot remember anything! This is actually frightening given the short-term memory loss of my husband...this better resolve or we are totally shit up a crick without paddles (cause we forgot them!);
Funky appetite. Started out all ravishing, eating everything in sight and an endless attempt to fill my hollow leg. Now it's finicky...can't eat as much, things don't taste as good
GAS...more of it. :)
TIRED. Can't tell if it's the madness that has been the last 2 weeks looking for houses aggressively and tending a plethora of basketball games and not being home last weekend...or if some of it's the pregnancy. Seems a bit crazy to think a tiny sesame seed could make me tired...though I'm sure that's not the first "crazy" of pregnancy.
Emotionally:
So far so good- I feel pretty great actually. I'm not super labile (yet), sitting more on the positive "i love life" side. Jamie has been great and it just started. I can already tell he's going to be a super support through this whole process.
We are trying to think of a name for baby in-utero...we kinda like Omar (for now)...makes me smile.
Yesterday I had spent the day with some girlfriends and Jamie texted, "miss you and Omar." So cute. :) He was following me home later that evening and I get a text that says, "hey speedracer, you have my child on board." Haha.
We have not told many people and if it were up to Jamie NO ONE would know. You know me...with this super power of talking, it's VERY hard to suppress...it's not like I carry cryptonite in my pocket. So, right now, for my sanity Sarah and Otter know (largely because Sarah's been through this and they were with us at the cabin when I was expressing the possibility) and yesterday I told Kathy and Liz (cause I just needed to share with people, and Kat's 20 weeks pregnant right now). I'm not ready to tell the whole world given the possibility of this whole thing not working out since it's so early but it IS fun if a few people know. :) I wanted to tell Kenny but she's got some semi-related issues going on...didn't seem like a good time. And the Kapplingers are greatly anticipating Jenny's in-vitro implantation this Wednesday (when I meet the midwives' nurse). Really really hoping it works out for them!! In a couple weeks, God willing, we will be able to tell people. Our midwife appointment is Mar 25...couldn't think of a better birthday present myself. :)
In the meantime, we are distracting ourselves with buying a house. Exhausting work but we look forward to having our own place! We don't want to get too excited about this pregnancy yet since, like most in this situation, we worry about miscarriage.
I also think about how it would be nice to be blissfully naive about all the problems that can happen in a pregnancy...however, medical training has stolen that away from me. Oh well...we'll take it as it comes and pray for a healthy baby.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Original stats
To document the drastic changes Omar caused...I must report my pre-pregnancy stats.
Weight: 144.8lbs
Size: 8 (or 29)
Bra: 34DD, slightly south
Top: Medium/Large (depending if boobs contribute due to style of shirt)
Piercings: belly button, ears
Tattoos: lower back
Overall I'm in the best shape I've been in since early college which I'm stoked about. I am fully aware this is a body-altering experience thus it's a GOOD thing I'm in great shape...though I'm a little depressed this "best state ever" condition not being lived out a little longer...especially given a couple of my new purchases for the summer. Hopefully those amazing new pieces will only collect dust for one year...pulling em out the first summer post-pregnancy (a goal!!!). :)
Stay tuned for post-pregnancy stats.
Weight: 144.8lbs
Size: 8 (or 29)
Bra: 34DD, slightly south
Top: Medium/Large (depending if boobs contribute due to style of shirt)
Piercings: belly button, ears
Tattoos: lower back
Overall I'm in the best shape I've been in since early college which I'm stoked about. I am fully aware this is a body-altering experience thus it's a GOOD thing I'm in great shape...though I'm a little depressed this "best state ever" condition not being lived out a little longer...especially given a couple of my new purchases for the summer. Hopefully those amazing new pieces will only collect dust for one year...pulling em out the first summer post-pregnancy (a goal!!!). :)
Stay tuned for post-pregnancy stats.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
of course I forgot one...
...of course I forgot one of my shopping rules...
10. IS IT MEANT TO BE?: This one I love...if it's in my size it was meant to be, if not, I probably wouldn't have made it look good. :) haha... It's another firm shopping rule I live by. It's REALLY meant to be if the last one is in your size...in fact, you probably don't even need to try it on- that is a sign from God right there. :)
Funny thing is, sometimes I really do feel designers are designing specifically for me. :) Like today for instance, the stars aligned and I was united with a little shorts jumpsuit that looks like an old swimsuit from the era where curves were embraced and full thighs were sexy. I picked the trendy number out, and it was available in my size (a sign!). When I slipped it on, the angels sang from the heavens. Immediately I smiled, a little nervous at first since I get a little self-conscious about my thighs. I stepped out of the dressing room (for a little person-to-person validation (besides the angels)). The dressing lady took one look and was like, "that is SO cute!!" Cha-ching! Done. :) There was another girl (about 14 years old and 60 pounds) trying on this very outfit...while her friend commented how after seeing me, she knew her little friend did not have the body-type for this number. :) It's those moments that I live for...reasons I love shopping... Sometimes it's just right. :) And if an experience like that doesn't give you confidence, I don't know what will. ROCK IT! :)
10. IS IT MEANT TO BE?: This one I love...if it's in my size it was meant to be, if not, I probably wouldn't have made it look good. :) haha... It's another firm shopping rule I live by. It's REALLY meant to be if the last one is in your size...in fact, you probably don't even need to try it on- that is a sign from God right there. :)
Funny thing is, sometimes I really do feel designers are designing specifically for me. :) Like today for instance, the stars aligned and I was united with a little shorts jumpsuit that looks like an old swimsuit from the era where curves were embraced and full thighs were sexy. I picked the trendy number out, and it was available in my size (a sign!). When I slipped it on, the angels sang from the heavens. Immediately I smiled, a little nervous at first since I get a little self-conscious about my thighs. I stepped out of the dressing room (for a little person-to-person validation (besides the angels)). The dressing lady took one look and was like, "that is SO cute!!" Cha-ching! Done. :) There was another girl (about 14 years old and 60 pounds) trying on this very outfit...while her friend commented how after seeing me, she knew her little friend did not have the body-type for this number. :) It's those moments that I live for...reasons I love shopping... Sometimes it's just right. :) And if an experience like that doesn't give you confidence, I don't know what will. ROCK IT! :)
shopping with Kara...what IS she thinking??
So I was shopping at the Mall of America today and all of sudden, while picking out the latest trendy item, I realized, "holy crap, my brain is constantly going when I'm shopping." There is a lot to think about...maybe I'm the only one that thinks this much...or maybe it's the elitist of the shoppers...or maybe everyone thinks this much. It's not just about 'do I look fat in this?' Oh no, there's far more on the mind to a skilled shopper than that. Here's what I think about.
1. TRENDS: What are the latest trends? And more importantly what are the up and coming trends? I prefer not to be joining the END of a trend (which thereby makes it rather untrendy). Now some of this can't be helped and the location in which one resides must be taken into consideration...since I live in the middle of nowhere "the latest trend" is relative being that it usually starts overseas and the next year hits the coasts and major cities, and lastly the middle of nowhere about 12 years after it really was the trend. But does it matter one could ask? Not in MN, because people here live are clad in Farm-Fleet or Polaris attire no matter what's in style. In fact, if you dress trendy people automatically assume you are from anywhere but here? Haha...it IS true- I've been asked many times where I was from and the sheer look of shock appears when I say MN. It cracks me up. :) Ok, ok...back to trends. I refuse to jump on board with overly trendy things like UGGs, though I do own a couple pair of skinny jeans I will admit. Bottom line: I want to be the one setting the trend and rockin the weird.
2. HAIR COLOR: What will my hair color be when I'm trying to wear this amazing item? It seems odd to some, but my hair color changes each season, depending greatly on my mood. :) Sounds a little silly, but I can't dominate a hot pink tank while I'm sportin red hair...and I prefer not to wear much white/beige/tan when I have platinum hair...it makes sense right? :)
3. IS IT WORTHY?: Whenever I'm shopping I just pick out whatever I like, not looking at price tags. UNLESS I'm in a store I've never been in- then I pick out something cheaper-looking like a tank top and scope out the price...if it's ridonculous I smile and walk in one of 2 directions- to the clearance rack or simply out the door. :) After squeezing myself into these "chosen" articles, I look in the mirror- typically in a head cocked (or taco-head) fashion and stand on my tiptoes (or no reason...it just happens...I think I feel skinnier that way). If it's a potential buy, I ask myself, "what would I pay for this?" based on how it looks. If it looks amazing, it's more obviously, but if it's just so-so, I hope I got it off the clearance rack...haha. Then I look at the tag...if it's more than I think it's worthy of based on how it looks on me, I just put it back, but if it's less...that garment is comin home with mama. :) It works super well!
4. Of course, HOW GOOD DO I MAKE THIS PIECE OF CLOTHING LOOK?: Haha... :) Every person has this thought- it's the staple to shopping...does this piece of clothing make me look fat or does it compliment my amazing assets? I firmly believe clothes are meant to compliment what God has given you. It's a matter of finding a designer that has the knack to do that for you. Who gives a shit what the tag says- people don't walk around with their clothes inside out, leaving tags/sizes exposed. Be aware of your shape and the styles that flatter your body. Also be aware of fabrics- clingy vs baggy, etc. There are perks to both depending on your trouble spots. Wear what fits you! And buy what you feel amazing in! If you have confidence in the outfit you're rocking- everyone will think you look good.
5. IN A BIND: There's nothing worse than when you're shopping for that perfect red slinky dress for under $50 and after searching high and low, even going in to stores you would be embarrassed to see anyone you knew in, and you CAN.NOT.FIND.THE.DAMN.THING!!! It's a given, if I'm looking for it, I won't find it. Thus I try to anticipate WELL in advance events coming up and keep my eyes peeled for classic items and amazing pieces every time I shop. You never know when you're going to need that flawless bright green silk number...so better get it now, you'll thank yourself later. It's so much less stressful. Another idea to cope with this bind- try not to have super strict expectations of something you want to find.
6. Just say NO to online shopping: I know it's super popular, but unless you don't mind sending boxes of stuff back, which you know never happens as much as it should, it's just too easy to a) spend loads of money, b) buy things that don't fit you well, and c) keep that stuff that doesn't fit you well because it's too much work or you forgot or you'll regift it or "muh, I alreay paid for it might as well keep it." Unless it's something you already own and you want to replace it knowing exactly how it fits you (or another exception I would let go is a MAD STEAL :))- just say no.
7. WILLING TO SHOP = SWEET FINDS: Listen people, you have to be willing to paruse through racks and racks of clothes to find that perfect item. Patience is key. Bathroom breaks BEFORE entering the store are an ABSOLUTE. Snacks and drinks packed with a definite UNDERSTANDING that this may take all day are necessary. The feeling you get when you stumble upon "THE ITEM" with a disheartened, I'm-leaving-in-one-minute-cause-I-haven't-found-shit-in-the-last-hour-I've-been-searching attitude is so absolutely worth it. You WILL be smiling and your heart will likely be racing (at least that's what it's like for me). :)
8. SHOP OFTEN: I need not say more. :)
The places I heart the most- H&M, Forever 21, Heritage, DSW shoe warehouse, Target, Old Navy, Aldo, and any outlet. ;)
Lastly...
9. DEATH OR BLISS?: Will my husband kill me when I come home with these stellar finds and is it worth it? :) (whisper)- it's almost always worth it ;)
And THAT is only shopping for clothes!! :) Shoes is a lot the same...I just mostly pick the ugliest, most odd-looking shoe that fits. :)
(sigh) I love shopping. :)
1. TRENDS: What are the latest trends? And more importantly what are the up and coming trends? I prefer not to be joining the END of a trend (which thereby makes it rather untrendy). Now some of this can't be helped and the location in which one resides must be taken into consideration...since I live in the middle of nowhere "the latest trend" is relative being that it usually starts overseas and the next year hits the coasts and major cities, and lastly the middle of nowhere about 12 years after it really was the trend. But does it matter one could ask? Not in MN, because people here live are clad in Farm-Fleet or Polaris attire no matter what's in style. In fact, if you dress trendy people automatically assume you are from anywhere but here? Haha...it IS true- I've been asked many times where I was from and the sheer look of shock appears when I say MN. It cracks me up. :) Ok, ok...back to trends. I refuse to jump on board with overly trendy things like UGGs, though I do own a couple pair of skinny jeans I will admit. Bottom line: I want to be the one setting the trend and rockin the weird.
2. HAIR COLOR: What will my hair color be when I'm trying to wear this amazing item? It seems odd to some, but my hair color changes each season, depending greatly on my mood. :) Sounds a little silly, but I can't dominate a hot pink tank while I'm sportin red hair...and I prefer not to wear much white/beige/tan when I have platinum hair...it makes sense right? :)
3. IS IT WORTHY?: Whenever I'm shopping I just pick out whatever I like, not looking at price tags. UNLESS I'm in a store I've never been in- then I pick out something cheaper-looking like a tank top and scope out the price...if it's ridonculous I smile and walk in one of 2 directions- to the clearance rack or simply out the door. :) After squeezing myself into these "chosen" articles, I look in the mirror- typically in a head cocked (or taco-head) fashion and stand on my tiptoes (or no reason...it just happens...I think I feel skinnier that way). If it's a potential buy, I ask myself, "what would I pay for this?" based on how it looks. If it looks amazing, it's more obviously, but if it's just so-so, I hope I got it off the clearance rack...haha. Then I look at the tag...if it's more than I think it's worthy of based on how it looks on me, I just put it back, but if it's less...that garment is comin home with mama. :) It works super well!
4. Of course, HOW GOOD DO I MAKE THIS PIECE OF CLOTHING LOOK?: Haha... :) Every person has this thought- it's the staple to shopping...does this piece of clothing make me look fat or does it compliment my amazing assets? I firmly believe clothes are meant to compliment what God has given you. It's a matter of finding a designer that has the knack to do that for you. Who gives a shit what the tag says- people don't walk around with their clothes inside out, leaving tags/sizes exposed. Be aware of your shape and the styles that flatter your body. Also be aware of fabrics- clingy vs baggy, etc. There are perks to both depending on your trouble spots. Wear what fits you! And buy what you feel amazing in! If you have confidence in the outfit you're rocking- everyone will think you look good.
5. IN A BIND: There's nothing worse than when you're shopping for that perfect red slinky dress for under $50 and after searching high and low, even going in to stores you would be embarrassed to see anyone you knew in, and you CAN.NOT.FIND.THE.DAMN.THING!!! It's a given, if I'm looking for it, I won't find it. Thus I try to anticipate WELL in advance events coming up and keep my eyes peeled for classic items and amazing pieces every time I shop. You never know when you're going to need that flawless bright green silk number...so better get it now, you'll thank yourself later. It's so much less stressful. Another idea to cope with this bind- try not to have super strict expectations of something you want to find.
6. Just say NO to online shopping: I know it's super popular, but unless you don't mind sending boxes of stuff back, which you know never happens as much as it should, it's just too easy to a) spend loads of money, b) buy things that don't fit you well, and c) keep that stuff that doesn't fit you well because it's too much work or you forgot or you'll regift it or "muh, I alreay paid for it might as well keep it." Unless it's something you already own and you want to replace it knowing exactly how it fits you (or another exception I would let go is a MAD STEAL :))- just say no.
7. WILLING TO SHOP = SWEET FINDS: Listen people, you have to be willing to paruse through racks and racks of clothes to find that perfect item. Patience is key. Bathroom breaks BEFORE entering the store are an ABSOLUTE. Snacks and drinks packed with a definite UNDERSTANDING that this may take all day are necessary. The feeling you get when you stumble upon "THE ITEM" with a disheartened, I'm-leaving-in-one-minute-cause-I-haven't-found-shit-in-the-last-hour-I've-been-searching attitude is so absolutely worth it. You WILL be smiling and your heart will likely be racing (at least that's what it's like for me). :)
8. SHOP OFTEN: I need not say more. :)
The places I heart the most- H&M, Forever 21, Heritage, DSW shoe warehouse, Target, Old Navy, Aldo, and any outlet. ;)
Lastly...
9. DEATH OR BLISS?: Will my husband kill me when I come home with these stellar finds and is it worth it? :) (whisper)- it's almost always worth it ;)
And THAT is only shopping for clothes!! :) Shoes is a lot the same...I just mostly pick the ugliest, most odd-looking shoe that fits. :)
(sigh) I love shopping. :)
Saturday, February 6, 2010
where to go...
Ugh...it's been a while since my last entry and mostly cause I'm not sure where to go with this thing. Don't get me wrong, I've got plenty to write about... I initially wanted to start writing about growing up and the madness that leads me to today, but then I wanted to share my random thoughts too long for a facebook update...hmmm...
I think I will devote my next couple, or several, or even many entries to some of the travel experiences I have had. Now most of these experiences have been with Jamie...it's how I knew we could get married actually...I can tolerate him traveling, cause when you travel you are put in every circumstance from extremely stressful to pure bliss. See, the thing is with us is that different things stress us out, thus allowing the other (carefree) one to point out the sheer ridiculousness going on thereby leading to laughter (well, not usually right away). :) I bust Jamie's balls a lot, but it's more for the laughs...I don't mean anything by it. :)
See, Jamie and I studied abroad together in Scotland in the spring of 2004, which was THE most amazing thing I have done to date...please recommend it to all of your children or yourselves or whomever- it's a once in a lifetime experience you will never have the opportunity to do again. And don't carry on about the money bullshit cause I was supporting myself in college...it's a beautiful thing called loans, and these loans are TOTALLY worth it. :)
While overseas I did quite a bit of journaling...see I only journal when I'm going on vacation...the rest of my monotonous, mundane (haha...yeah right) life I don't feel the need to journal about cause you know someone would find it and feelings would be hurt, blah blah blah...it would just be a venting catalog anyway, that's all. Anywho...I filled 2 journals while traveling Europe...unfortunately at this very moment I cannot find the first one (stay tuned...in probably 1 years' time, I will have found it...haha), but I will share (pretty much verbatim) some of my entries. Here we go...Kapplinger (well, Otterness/Kapplinger) adventures- ALL ABOARD!!!! :)
I think I will devote my next couple, or several, or even many entries to some of the travel experiences I have had. Now most of these experiences have been with Jamie...it's how I knew we could get married actually...I can tolerate him traveling, cause when you travel you are put in every circumstance from extremely stressful to pure bliss. See, the thing is with us is that different things stress us out, thus allowing the other (carefree) one to point out the sheer ridiculousness going on thereby leading to laughter (well, not usually right away). :) I bust Jamie's balls a lot, but it's more for the laughs...I don't mean anything by it. :)
See, Jamie and I studied abroad together in Scotland in the spring of 2004, which was THE most amazing thing I have done to date...please recommend it to all of your children or yourselves or whomever- it's a once in a lifetime experience you will never have the opportunity to do again. And don't carry on about the money bullshit cause I was supporting myself in college...it's a beautiful thing called loans, and these loans are TOTALLY worth it. :)
While overseas I did quite a bit of journaling...see I only journal when I'm going on vacation...the rest of my monotonous, mundane (haha...yeah right) life I don't feel the need to journal about cause you know someone would find it and feelings would be hurt, blah blah blah...it would just be a venting catalog anyway, that's all. Anywho...I filled 2 journals while traveling Europe...unfortunately at this very moment I cannot find the first one (stay tuned...in probably 1 years' time, I will have found it...haha), but I will share (pretty much verbatim) some of my entries. Here we go...Kapplinger (well, Otterness/Kapplinger) adventures- ALL ABOARD!!!! :)
Sunday, November 8, 2009
cat-calling
I'm just wondering about the purpose of cat-calling, hootin and hollerin at people minding their own business. What do you think is going to happen? Unless everyone's wasted at a bar or on spring break, chances are EXTREMELY low that you'll see anything like boobies. Do you think you're brightening my day by being that creepy old man with no teeth giving me a shout-out? Again, unless you're a ridiculously gorgeous group of hotties, please, spare me energy it takes to put your hands in your mouth and whistle after yelling "woo hoo..." I'm not even running, there's nothing to woo hoo about...so put that half-burned cigarette back in your mouth and fuck off. :)
Friday, November 6, 2009
the gift
A gift of talking without breathing and therefore never needing to stop speaking is one of the best traits I could have asked to be passed on to me, you know besides looks, brains, and the ability to love people, eating, shopping, and sleeping, as well as being one of the most stellar athletes I know (ha!), along with my insanely amazing fashion sense and patience for those who desire to speak when I'm talking about something important which is actually everything I'm saying. :) It comes in useful daily.
This highly desired gift (...that's what I've heard anyways) has been passed on through the generations starting with my Grandma Otterness (though I'm sure it goes back further than that...she's just the oldest one I know who possesses the gift). The gift actually gives you the ability to have a "conversation" with someone without actually ever hearing the other person speak...it's amazing really. :) Auntie Diane and my cousin Jody also possess this gift though Diane is not blood relation...apparently this talent can skip around or maybe her family has generations of the gift that has been passed down. Needless to say we are not for the shy of heart. In other words, we will EAT YOU ALIVE. Speak up sonny...but DON'T INTERRUPT ME. :) It's always my favorite when family members bring someone new to a holiday gathering where the wolverines wait with drool exponentially pouring down their chins for the victims. If there's time (and we actually LIKE the person) we will warn them of the behaviors they will encounter at the gathering. They pretend like they understand and we just chuckle cause they really have NO idea what they're about to witness. It goes a little something like this: entering household where wolverine gathering is taking place...we don't normally crowd the door, it's just to easy for the new prey to escape. There's usually some sort of 'HEY!' sounding very similar to that of 'Norm!' from Cheers...signaling the arrival of someone. Ears perk up but "conversations" continue onward in full force as they were. The new prey is usually greeted by Grandma (who saves her powers for smaller get-togethers so she can fully dominate) or auntie Deb who sadly does not possess the gift...which is ok- the new prey gets an idea of normalcy and smiles, as they clearly release the breath they've been holding all the while. Deb asks normal first questions and the prey shyly answers in short, straight to the point replies...dumb...Deb has immediately identified their weakness... She smiles and turns away laughing to herself. Eventually someone with the gift coughs or sneezes or worse- becomes distracted! and their prey (which are also those in the family who do not have the gift) immediately has noticed an escape. Those skilled in dealing with the gift have the perfect exit strategies planned...it's a must. But you know what that means...a gifted person is freely walking about, drooling, waiting for dessert...who will it be, who who who...hmmmm...well what's this? a new person? SCORE!!!! Diane, Jody, or myself creep up to the once smiling, now nervous-looking prey...and it begins. Whoareyou?Whereareyoufrom?Doyouwork?Ohyoudon't(an answer merely guessed based on the age of the prey- no responses are actually allowed).Welldoyougotothen?Whatdoyougotoschoolfor?Howlongwillthattake?Soyoufromabigfamily?(again, we don't care so we assume something and continue onward before an actual response has left there mouth)Wheredotheyalllive?(teeny tiny pause- called the mercy pause, for those ballsy enough to actually talk...usually no takers here)(no response)Soooooodidyouwatchtv?Youlikesports?Didyouseethegamelastnight?Itwassoamazing....etcetcetc...let'stalkaboutmemememenowcauseyou'reboringandtooquiet. :)
Do YOU possess this gift?
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